The first essay is ~3 pages minimum, the second being ~5. I have always struggled with essays. They make me feel frustrated... I've been really happy these past few months which is revolutionary for me, but lately I've felt that I have been slowly receding back to my former self that was sad and depressed, I even had a little bit of suicidal thoughts a few moments ago... and my only problem in life right now really is these essays. I don't know why it's so hard for me to write. I have A's in the rest of my classes, this is my only stressor and I'm sick of it. It's not even an advanced English class, either.
I've done half a page of the first essay. I would specify the topics, but I do not want any connections between my online and real life identity.
I'll try to list all of the problems I have with writing these essays:
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Feels like I can't formulate a proper syntax. The range of possibilities feels endless; it feels like I am looking into infinity and expected to recognize which values I should keep and put up in their proper places, if that makes any sense at all?
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Can't find enough information on the topic. Wikipedia is basically the #1 source I can find.
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I just don't care about the topics. I hate doing things I don't want to do. But logically, I understand that means nothing.
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It feels like I am simply plagiarizing other's works and putting it into my own words; I even struggle not to duplicate their syntax. Right now I'm literally just copying the Wikipedia page and trying to jumble things around a bit so it's obfuscated... but the syntax is almost exactly the same.
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Fuck, I have like 10 days to finish these essays ... is it even possible my friends?
I tried walking my dog for 20 minutes to clear my mind. Didn't help.
Submitted May 17, 2018 at 11:15AM by AggressiveProgrammer https://ift.tt/2IMUWxu