Recently my mind has brought up an old memory I have suppressed for years. Im confused at the moment trying to figure out if this was sexual abuse or just harmless play. So here's the memory. When I was around 8 my 6 year old brother use to grope me while I was sleeping. He use to pull my underwear down and grope my bum and put his face on it. I would wake up many nights with anxiety. I use to act like I was just waking up to get him to stop. I would wake up in shame. It still gives me anxiety being alone in a room with him. I always make sure the door is open. He's 13 now and im 16. He acts like he doesn't remember. The memories cause me alot of anxiety and distress. I feel disgusting and gross. I hate myself for it. I feel like I just let it happen. I want to bring it up in therapy but im too afraid.
Submitted July 02, 2018 at 12:16AM by [deleted] https://ift.tt/2KBJFAU