Social media is causing me to be in a constant state of depression, stress, anxiety and. I have already deleted everything (Facebook and Instagram), but the fact that nothing is ever gone from the internet is what's eating at me.
I'm ashamed and extremely embarrassed to admit that I've photoshopped pictures of myself online in the past. It was extremely dumb of me. I was younger (in my teens) when I did so and I photoshopped and edited my body to look better and more curvy. I'm not internet famous or anything, but I did have a decent amount of followers on my account (more than the average person, around two to three thousand). I'm embarrassed my friends and family seen it, and I don't want to face or see them anymore because of it. The fact that anyone could've screenshotted and uploaded my embarrassing pictures somewhere online under #photoshopfail is really getting to me. I'm afraid someone I know in real life will see them on a photoshop fail account someday, or possibly a future employer. What if I can't get a job in the future because of this? The shame and embarrassment I feel is indescribable.
All I've been doing for the past few weeks is staying in bed and sleeping all day because of how stressed out this is making me. I can't leave my room or house, I'm having panic and anxiety attacks and I can't eat. I know I can't go back in time and un-post the photos I've posted, and I really don't know what to do. I wish I could go back in time to when I was younger and never make the choice to create any social media accounts. Life would be so much easier if I would've...this is too much for me to handle. I'm thinking of doing something drastic
Submitted July 29, 2018 at 04:30AM by J1567 https://ift.tt/2AmymZy