Hi all
So to start we are two brothers of which im the older (26vs 23). Over the years I have not been able to accept and get along with my brother. There are plenty of problems with our relationship and I guess a lot come from my side but I cant let go of it. Its like the fact he is more successful, popular, better looking and pretty much has his life sorted out. When people ask our parents what he’s up to vs me it sounds like they could write a novel about him but for me its more like if you cant say anything good don’t say anything at all (that’s not so much the problem I guess).
I am very jealous and envious. I live a kind of hard life but he is on easy street. I wish failure upon him. Like I don’t want him to succeed and im happy to see him fail because it makes me feel better but the funny thing is that it rarely seems to happen
Over the years there have been other things like the fact I cant seem to do the same thing that he does. Like for example starts doing or gets into it first then I cant bring myself to and wont have anything to do with it and find my own thing (even if I really want to). Same the other way where if im into it first then he gets into it I’ll just drop it just because hes now into it. Its petty af know (especially considering my age) but it is something I have carried through my childhood into adulthood.
So how/what. I dunno. What to do
Thanks
Submitted July 17, 2018 at 09:50PM by supathrow123 https://ift.tt/2uDKi2Z