Hey all I have another question It's not really very Important but I'd like to know poeple's opinion on the matter.
Firstly I get called cute rather than hot off girls alot. It's either he's 'nice' 'medicocre' or 'cute' I personally think cute means nice but a nice way of saying 'friendzoned'.
Bassically unless your massively attractive + cute it means I think your adorable but no chance so in a sense it's extremely bad.
Real life's Situation: 1
I was once at secondary school here In the UK ages 11-16 go there. And a girl J kinda liked later but never said anything to went, while turning around and said, I overheard "Mind you he Is cute!".
Real life's Situation 2:
I was once at college a year ago, and some girls sat next to me they weren't massively attractive some where some weren't I was to bothered song shit on the computer I never really watched them or took much notice.
But one of them asked a very easy and almost obvious favour of me. Something like "could you tell me how to lock my screen?".
and all it Is Is (for those who don't know) Is clicking on start and then locking the screen a very simple and plain task so I helped out reached out my hand grabbed the mouse and then did what she asked and that's that. "One of them I think there was 3 turned around and said "Oh my god (giggled alot)". I didn't think much of It and the girl who asked the original question said it a calm softer quieter voice "oh thanks with a slightly silent/dissapointed tone".
To be honest most of them to me were in-between average looks/slighlty hit sort of they didn't strike me as ugly but not 10's either so I didn't really think much of It to be honest.
Why would I? I thought she actually had a question but it was dumb. It's never really crossed my mind by meaning, was she laughing at me like a cruel joke or trying to hit on me. I don't think she was trying to hit on me because barely anyone does.
Secondly I just want to point out I have sorta reached a point In my life where I have excepted I'll be single probs all my life don't pity don't say anything I have accepted these things and It's ok. We are not owed anything In the Intimacy/sex side of life we just have to take whatever we are given. I have been rejected countless times and I'm starting to think I might as well adopt a asexual lifestyle/mindset.
I am seriously thinking one way of getting rid of my urges when they do arise Is seeing If I can get those pills that kills you libido and see if I can get castrated, or atleast a vasectomy when I'm alot older.
I am 19 and only had a Gf as a Infant/ Primary school age. Although i hide it I feel ugly worthless and unattractive for the last few years. And I recently came up with the attitude fuck It I don't care. If I'm gonna fail with the opposite sex might as well try and be happy anyways.
Fuck paying £100-£300 to get something other poeple are getting for free fuck it honest I'm out I'd rather be better off finically and extremely frustrated then skint and pisses off when I don't have a few hundred quid lying around.
I understand that It's a job and It's quite degrading type of job but almost a full weeks wage for a hour or two, fuck off mate!
Don't mean I hate anyone but I'm starting to accept Involuntary Celibacy Is all I have as an option and good news for me I am a Buddhist. Which means when I'm older OAP I can retire and go be a Monk. I can actually get ordained as a Monk especially If I'm single so It's good eitherway.
So eitherway I do have a strong belief In Buddhism and I did it was seriously thinking about becoming a Monk.
So and I thought one super easy way to get rid of urges is by doing something permanent It's a pain living with a sexual urges/desire and not being able to do fuck all with it makes you feel like a loser. So I was thinking about castration/pills to make my desire plummit.
I'd rathe live a life that's asexual and not having to deal with urges to having urges and not being able to do something with It. It makes you want to top yourself sometimes.
So honest answers what did the girl who asked me to lock her screen actually mean it's been on my mind for months? I was In the LRC (computer hang out place).
Submitted October 11, 2018 at 12:41AM by Cookiemonster18e8 https://ift.tt/2RGzyeX