there has been a state ordered no contact order between my husband and i for the past year and a half, and i haven't seen or talked to him since. about 6 months ago i went completely crazy and started hearing the voice of god. it told me to do alot of crazy crap, and i lost my kids and destroyed my life. about 6 months ago i met a man, and "god" told me i would be with him for the rest of my life, so i listened and decided to leave my husband though i couldn't tell him yet. i have always adored my husband, and never wanted to leave him, and the whole time i was with that man, i was in agony about leaving my husband. of course that relationship ended about 2 months ago, and i realized i was really just crazy. but now ive cheated on my husband in a very bad way, and if i tell him he will never forgive me even though i only did it because i was nuts, and he will leave me. if he leaves me it will destroy me far far worse then i already am, but the thought of keeping it from him is killing me. i have no idea what to do at all. i cant lose him, but i cant keep this from him. any advice you can give me would be very appreciated.
Submitted February 04, 2019 at 12:59PM by Tandapanda12 http://bit.ly/2TqjNcA