I feel like I am really super human based on reevaluating my life. My brain or mind feels like it’s too “extreme.” You will see why after looking at these examples. Keep in mind there are far more. Worth the read.
First things first, my reactions. Idk why but my reactions are ridiculously good? The smallest movements my body automatically reacts to.. it just feels like I’m always on “alert mode.” This has prevent me from getting hurt in a hundred occasions. Sometimes even save my life. An example will be like falling yet shifting my face away from potentially losing an eye. All in a split second.
Illnesses? I don’t illnesses. I can be around ppl with the flu and stomach viruses and be okay. I get fake illnesses caused by me. What does this mean? Oh maybe I’m having a heart attack because of symptoms. Yet in reality my own brain is merely causing these symptoms. Cancer, or stroke or any other minor or serious disease. I have never gotten a real illness and honestly I don’t think I ever will. Like my brain caused weird shit to happen like my body pulsating in random locations because I’m stressed or anxious. For example my lips were never chapped for awhile and when I finally noticed this fact, they got chapped only because I thought about it. Btw this is VERY ANNOYING.
Weather? I can ignore any cold or warm temperature. I can go outside in extreme weather and be fine.
Pain? I can ignore any type of pain no matter the severity as if it wasn’t real. How? I ignore it. Why is it so easy? Idk. My brain is.. odd.
I have this odd skill where I can be good at anything I want to be good at in little time.
I can read people like a book. Even online. It doesn’t take me 5 minutes to figure anybody out. The reason is because for some reason, I am always retaining information. Every single thing a person say or does, I remember it. I keep it in a mental file. I never forget a name I never forget a face. I am always analyzing people. Some people might feel like they can take advantage of me until they realize I was aware of everything since the beginning.
I can completely turn off my emotions. If I feel it’s because I wanted to. I can not care at all for someone dying if I turn off my emotions. But I prefer to not live this way. So I’m ok with feeling. If I care it’s because I allow it. If I don’t it’s because of me.
I am always “fit.” Despite not exercising.
I have extreme awareness of situations. Irl and online. I am always thinking and observing my surroundings.
My biggest downfall will be myself. Because even being slightly stressed is enough for my body to manifest symptoms. It just feels like.. my brain or mind is “too strong.” You May read all this and think this all sounds wonderful. It is. There’s just one major thing. Any type of anxiety or stress I feel literally. Whether that be my body tricking me into thinking I have cancer or this insufferable pulsating that makes me wanna go crazy. You may be thinking what’s causing it. My mind. And I don’t know why or what to do about it. I have to live with it. My mind is too strong. This is good and bad.
Submitted March 08, 2019 at 02:25AM by Ariandelle- https://ift.tt/2EKLpD6
