I am a male in my late twenties. Almost done with my phd in biomedical engineering. I don't have debt. I make great money for a phd. Married for 3 years, it is going good. I don't have any medical issues. I am really good in programming. I am in good shape and I do sports around 4 times a month. People seem to like me. I think, when someone thinks about my situation, it sounds good.
Yet, I feel like the most useless piece of shit. Its like I am a retard. I feel like I am a piece of shit of a husband too. I feel like everyone hates me and that I do not trust anyone, wife, family, friends, colleges. I still trust doctors, most of the time. Also, I feel like I an attention whore. The idea of "will anyone care if I disappear" is always on my mind. And the worst thing, everything feels like "meh". I just try to live avoiding trouble and looking for the logical good thing to do.
What is wrong with me? I was a much hopeful and cheerful person. I loved people and life!
Have you been there, and things became better ? or is it gonna stay like that forever?
Submitted March 05, 2019 at 08:57PM by person4299 https://ift.tt/2NJfxD1
