Throughout my whole life, I thought I had friends. I had many of them but I don't think I had "real" friends. I feel like as if I just know them and only I think of them as friends. Whenever there is something going on between my friends, like some kind of gossip or some kind of drama, I feel like as if I am the last one to know or I just don't know what's going on. Its like, I feel secluded from my group of friends. Right now, I am with my friends, and one of my friend is depressed for some kind of reason that I do not know of, but all my other friends seem to know about it. I feel like I am inside the group but at the same time, I'm not. Like with my group of friends, we do everything together: sleep, play games, eat...etc. But whenever there is something grave or serious going on, I am the only one that does not know what the fuck is going on and I feel ashamed and sad at the same time. I feel like I have done everything to them, but to them....I am just another "friend." Its been like this for years now (not with this current friends), but with others too. What is wrong with me?
Submitted April 06, 2019 at 09:32AM by razermouth http://bit.ly/2WIQYt4