My sister (a literal 13 y/o), for years, has been bullying me. She tells me I can't wear her pants, but whenever I tell her she can't wear mine, she still wears them. She's "convinced" that I'll stretch hers out, but then how do mine fit her?? (I know it seems trivial, but it happens practically everyday, and when things stack up, they're more of a burden..) Not just that, she's always calling me psycho/psychopath/crazy/fat/fatty/stupid/idiot, and if that's not enough, she doesn't even look at me right. She always cringes when I just walk into a room(or make eye contact with her, or talk (not even to her, just in general)), and she makes it audible, you'll hear a defined "Eugh". We share a room (I'm so grateful haha.....) and each time she comes in, she slams the door open just to see me jump. She'll laugh at my discomfort and my discontent (I'm the psycho??)
I'm getting tired of it and I've tried complimenting her back when she insults, I've tried ignoring her/pretending she's not there and then she starts screaming and calling me deaf and stupid, I've tried telling her/asking her to stop and she looks at me like I'm crazy (for defending myself??) because, yeah, by then I'll be hysterical and sobbing/screaming like an idiot. I'm now resorting to violent methods such as kicking her or pushing her whenever she starts to insult because I'm out of options (I don't want to hurt her, I am a passive human being, but I no longer know what to do!!!! The other day I wanted to punch her so badly because I was getting so frustrated with trying to explain what she does is bad, but instead I just hit myself repeatedly, and now this has convinced her more I'm a "psycho." I'm so desperate for her to stop and to see the damage she's done, but she never quits)! She won't listen to my parents on this matter and she'll call them stupid if they try to defend me.
A few months ago, I was hospitalized in a psychiatric hospital for "reasons" and not even that has changed her behavior.
She's also said that I'm "so annoying" she wants to kill me..
I no longer know what to do, other than run away or do "something else" (that's much more dangerous if you catch my drift) but that's not the smartest idea.. Other than waiting it out until I move out for college (I'm a 16 y/o girl going on 17. My senior year is coming up, so I'm just going to be here for one more year once I finish up my junior year), what's a good way to deal with her? My therapist used to tell me that I can't change her and that we can only change how I react to her, but there has to be a way. If anyone has any suggestions, please please please comment below.. Thank you, I really appreciate it!!
Also, sorry, I don't mean to talk about such depressing things, I just need advice..!
Submitted April 21, 2019 at 07:30AM by cryingtoes http://bit.ly/2UNCQlB
