I don’t know why but I never want to lose my virginity. I don’t know where it comes from and I don’t know why I feel this way. You could say I fear sex and losing my virginity, I have a really complicated thinking when it comes to sex. One side of me thinks that having sex is okay but the other side of my brain thinks that sex is disgusting and I don’t want to do it. I feel really guilty too because I do this really weird thing where I go out of my way to seduce guys and than afterward I just get this wave of anxiety when I think about the sex we could possibly have. I know it’s fucked up to pull a guy in and make them feel attracted to you and make it seem like your okay with things that you aren’t but I cant help it. This feeling inside makes me feel so conflicted. I don’t know why I never want to lose my virginity.
Submitted April 05, 2019 at 07:47AM by halfroseshalfgold http://bit.ly/2UAZnRG