— Ok guys if you notice I posted about this guy weeks ago, the one who travels a lot and ask me to join him & so on, this is the update. Upcoming Tuesday I will fly to HK just to meet him. He’s buying my ticket. Because I am really tight this month and I can’t afford it (I can but it’s super out of budget) — first he asked me to catch him in Guangzhou but I need visa etc won’t be enough time and I said I want visa-free. He do want to come here but he said not this time because his schedule is tight and doesn’t want to waste a day in ✈️. I have acceleration program in school coming up, which my parents paid for it. I watch a concert earlier this month and I don’t want to ask any thing more to my parents. It will be too much. I even told this guy not to do it because I want us to be equal. I don’t want to be half-sided he kept spending for me. Because I’m afraid it will be all him. I know this sounds freaky & weird, but this is happening. He bought my ticket. And wanted to spend time with me. Which most of it: sex. I feel guilty accepting his nice gesture; because after I asked some friends they said it’s fine - but I love making love to him. It’s crazy. I try to avoid him until last night he called me, we do video call and really book the ticket in-front of me. But how “okay” is “okay” 😩 I wanted to do some custom gifts for him, maybe print out his photo and put it on nice frame give it to him because that’s what I can give. I can’t afford his eye cream nor his perfume hahah! Anyway it’s not about that — my foremost concern is: 1. Attached feelings — because this is first time I feel like I have to “give him back” 2. Terrified he will consider and enough of me.... then I’m losing my hottieeeee ❤️ Saw him yesterday thru video he looked so tired. He said been working, which is I feel it’s true, he always contact me every other day but I feel like not losing him. I don’t feel like he just away, I feel he’s close and near: with different time & schedule. I do curious what will he get me this time. He mentioned VS 🤫 I cannot waiiiit. I am super excited but guilty at the same time. Ok so my questions: - is my gift ok? - do I have to feel bad about him doing this... is this worth it? Is this fun? How much okay is okay..... Terrified we will run in circle but who knows ... ❤️ I kinda like him; I can see 👶 and 🏡
Submitted May 11, 2019 at 05:28AM by bleedsteel http://bit.ly/2Vf3Zt9