i’ve done therapy for years and i’ve only gotten worse, i’ve been to a mental hospital and only gotten worse, i’ve been but on meds and only gotten worse, i’ve self harmed and only gotten worse, i’ve talked to family and only gotten worse. I’m 13f and i feel like my mind will take over and i won’t live til my birthday in 1.5 months. i feel like i ruin everything, and people always say to cherish life and it will get better but i’ve always felt like shit and i there’s nothing to cherish, i do everything wrong. i’ve gained 50 pounds in the last year, am most likely getting held back, and my parents might have to build a new room if i move in from my toxic mom’s house (my parents are divorced) and i’ve tried homeschooling but i just got worse as well. i don’t want help but i feel like i need it, because the only experiences i’ve gotten with help is that it makes me worse. i just want to know what i can do before my mind takes over. (oh yeah and i’m lesbian and i’ve only dated one person in my whole life so i feel like i’m never going to find anyone)
Submitted June 05, 2020 at 04:51AM by throwaway8264826 https://ift.tt/3dA23p9