Okay so i met this really cute blonde guy on a dating site. Let's call him "Max". I am a 30 year old African chic. He is a 48 year old German guy.
See we African chics tend to have a thing for that whole blonde, blue eyes, long hair look. It's dreamy 😍 And on the other hand they tend to go all "goo gaa gaa" 🤤 for the more natural looking curvier African woman with darker skin and natural looking hair (which is what i am) as opposed to the very light skinned African chics with eurocentric features and straight hair. I guess a physician would call it "opposites attracting" 🤷🏽♀️ I've had white dudes in Berlin tell me they don't like wigs, weaves, too much makeup, skin lightening and secretly adoring African curves as opposed to the very slender look.
I have also oddly had a guy in Munich say to me that he prefers a "cultural look" on an African girl as opposed to a "modern look" WHATEVER THAT MEANS OR INSINUATES IS FOR YOU TO DECIDE! LOL! Fetish or not, he said that and waaaaareva! To each his own!
So anyway we went on our very first date in Berlin where i presently live.
See i relocated from Kenya to Germany after falling in love with a German tourist in my country (summer 2016) let's call him "Adolf" (pan intended!) Lol! I am such an idiot i swear 😆🤣
Anyway back to serious talk now, the first few months of marriage to "Adolf" (he's 34 years old by the way) was great but then things gradually deteriorated between my husband and i.
I guess we got married too soon or we both ignored major red flags! When i think back now, it's a combination of many things really not just one reason- his NOT wanting kids, his cold family, big culture clash, money issues, my greedy dad always taking never giving, his weird perveted little brother, his demanding job, his stupid racist mom etc.) But he himself is not a bad person generally speaking just very difficult.
And so anyway fast forward to 2020 i said the following to my new date, "Max" (And i quote)
"So as is stated on my profile, i am still legally married but my soon to be ex-husband and i, have agreed to divorce as soon as i move out. I still need to get my shit together in this country, work permits and get an apartment of my own but in the meantime we agreed we can see other people but we are through with one another me and him!"
"Max" was very understanding and cool about it because BIG COINCIDENCE he is also in the exact same situation with his baby's mother (A fellow German. A pretty brunette) but they were never legally married. They just need to co-parent and she is half way out (like she lives half way with her mom till her apartment comes through and she just got a really nice job at the bank. I was happy to hear this because it means, his son won't struggle. I like his son. The baby's mother hates "Max" by the way and cannot talk to him without yelling at him. I hear her through the phone. He has to put the phone away from his ear LITERALLY. That woman is always screaming at him. She can't talk like a normal person EVER!)
So we went on a couple of more dates (it's been like 4 months) but all we do is kiss, make out and we agreed, we will have sex only after either his apartment is finally FULLY his again or my apartment has come through.
We are saving sex for a safe cosy bed!
The most we ever did was a hot BJ i gave him behind IKEA and he exploded in my mouth in broad daylight (when he came he talked his native language German! It was sooooo freaking hot. I was like,"Mwaga kwa mdomo yangu mzungu" That's my language for,"cumm in my mouth white boy"....we were on fire!!!!) And he returned the favour the next day in a public bus and i exploded in his mouth. Poor migrant grand ma (looked Syrian or Afghani) sitting opposite us was sooo shocked at what she had just witnessed we had to jump out of the bus before she called the cops on us or tells the driver that there was a man who pulled a girl's panties down and licked her private parts on the bus 😆 Poor little grand ma. I hope she did not have nightmares that night! But it was all worth it! I have a lot of fun with this guy!
Anyway, that's the most we've done but we talk all night (calling, texting, sexting, sharing our dreams, planning the future. He promised to get me a dog once he finally has his place to himself) then BOOM, he just slowly pulled away WTF????? I started getting one word answers! And ALOT of blue ticks on WhatsApp!!! What the actual fuck??????? I swear nothing changed! Everything was fine! He leaves work, we kiss, go for coffee dates, chill in his car, make out, kiss some more, text all night but he just became distant! JUST LIKE THAT!!!
So i tried to get more attention from him by faking that i was seeing someone else (desperate move i know 😒) but i felt i had to! So i showed him the "new guy's" pic (ofcourse there's no guy. It was fake. Downloaded from the dating app) and i went like,"Is this guy related to u?" And he went like,"No why?" And i said,"Oh nothing, we were on a date recently and he just kinda reminds me of you!"......He said,"Oh u were?! That's nice. He is handsome after all" (but the way he said it was kinda like "fuck u bitch")
Then he stopped calling. Then more one word texts. Then silence! So then i did something stupid! He asked me,"hey what u doing" (Out of the blues like days of not talking to me) i replied by sending him a picture of me putting on a red thong and said,"heading out to meet the guy i told u about. I love how it feels when he is inside me. And you? What are u upto"
BOOM KABOOM I GOT BLOCKED!
PLEASE HELP ME!!! I WANT HIM BACK! HE LEGIT BLOCKED ME EVERYWHERE! I AM BLOCKED EVEN ON THE DATING SITE!!! WHAT IS HE THINKING? WHY DID HE PULL AWAY IN THE FIRST PLACE??? WHY DID HE BLOCK ME (I REALLY REALLY WOULD LIKE TO KNOW THAT) IS HE STILL INTO ME???? DOES HE STILL LIKE ME??? DID HE EVER EVEN REALLY LIKE ME?????? WILL HE COME BACK?????????????????? HEEEELP! Can someone please just answer me. Like these specific questions please!
Submitted August 15, 2020 at 04:48AM by sexynine10 https://ift.tt/30VdLa0
